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    October 03

    爱,要大声说出来

    在这里遥祝生日的人生日快乐,新婚的人新婚快乐。本不应该在这欢庆佳节、纪念日的时间去思考这么不喜庆的话题。但妈妈进医院让我深刻地体会到了表达的重要性,加上一个同学的离去……

     

    老妈无甚大碍,但足以给我狠狠敲响警钟。那种感受至今想起还刻骨铭心,觉得像把刀在心口着实地剐了一下。看着她突然倒下去的恐慌,害怕到医院里跑进跑出急诊的无助和最后等待的焦急……脑子里突然跳起各种预设的可能性,悲观的可能性。铺天盖地的痛苦,遗憾,后悔如潮涌入大脑。短时间里如播电影一般突然回忆起很多或淡忘或忽略的妈妈为我做的细小的伟大的事,满满的全是爱。深深的自责不断地敲击着我的心,忐忑、恐惧、无助夹杂着眼泪波涛汹涌。心里千万遍地念叨妈妈一定要平安无事,只有这样才能让我有机会弥补我忽略掉的爱。对你爱不是可耻的,是可敬的,为何要觉得不好意思,羞于表达。妈,虽然我无法直接对你说出这些话,我觉得太矫情。我会在心里跟你大声说,我一定要在你的剩下的有生之年里加倍爱你,不管我有多大能力,能赚多少钱,我都会一如既往地关心你,毫无保留地照顾你。请不要担心我是否在你身边,即便将来结婚生子,对你的爱也不会减分。

     

    同学虽不是至亲,但他的离去也让我通心。一个曾经鲜活、阳光健康的男孩子,一个曾经给大家带来欢声笑语的人。仅仅是因为无法开口向心仪的人表白,而采用酒壮新人胆的方式却导致酒精中毒而离世。而那句话却始终没有说出口,留给女孩子一辈子的痛苦和自责。社会在进步,人与人的感情沟通方式却在退步,能含蓄就决不会直接。有的人却愿意忍受等待的煎熬,耗尽昂贵的青春去等待一句话,而其间却又夹杂了多少猜测、揣摩、惴惴不安、期盼、无奈和焦急,起落不停忽而忧忽而喜。即便最终等到了,那也浪费了太多的时间精力去享受本应属于自己的更多的幸福。有的人矜持内敛,努力维系着关系却最终错失良机,等到最后曲终人散都没唱出高潮。如果爱她在乎她,就不要让她等待,不要让自己的犹豫去消费她宝贵的青春。若是两情相悦而如此耗尽元气,那就更是浪费生命,更甚者双方都因无法继续等待而放弃,那,一定会让人饮恨终生。

     

    为了幸福的结局

    犹豫的人儿请加油

    不要再让爱继续发呆

    不要再让遗憾占据终生

    不要等到连后悔的来不及

    只有一声叹息。。。。。。

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    Steffiwrote:
    i am still in maldives, full of romance and superises. Ruby, have you and goops came? how about everything on Hudhuranfushi :) looking forward to hear from you about it
    Oct. 10
    Tang Rubywrote:
    麻袋玩的怎么样拉???
    Oct. 9
    居然自己出去耍了!!!
    Oct. 9
    Steffiwrote:
    sorry can't type chinese here in Maldives, thx to u all;
    soso unfortunately I would not go back to China on my Bday, I will celebrate here in Maldives,
    Lava, last year you celebrated with me for me&soso's Bday, I still remember your poor laptop dropping our from the window, haha~~ don't tell me that you rejected the 1million offer because of me, I never believe you:)
    Oct. 8
    雄 罗wrote:
    生日快乐。呵呵。
    Oct. 7
    jianbo duwrote:
    呀, 想起去年我就是在她生日的那天改变主意推掉年薪XX的工作.......
    Oct. 6
    生日快乐!你生日那天是全国大多数人民节后第一个工作日
    Oct. 6
    議文wrote:
    爱你就要告诉你
    Oct. 5
    Billwrote:
    大爱无价!
    Oct. 4

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